finally have the mood to update a little. haha. i just done my op 2 weeks ago on my ankle. on a super long mc now. in the ord mood.. haha.. hope i can get out of army asap!. probably about 1 year b4 i can play ball again.

hmm. recently.. ive been really excited about this new team that my friends and i gonna set up. made up of players that are friends. we've known each other for a pretty long time. and if everything works well, we will definately have alot of fun. managed to get 16players who are willing to commit. hope we could start our trainings soon.

ive been waiting for this for quite some time. playing ball with your own group of friends. shld b really cool. and the team looks quite strong too!. im probably gonna be a pest and keep texting everyone reminding them to commit. really wan this to work out. well.. we shall see!

finally. the weekend is here. its been stressful.
i dunt really know what else to say. im lost
actually. all i really want. is my life back.

just got home. probably wun be sleeping the whole night. 2 much on my mind.

was out with xh daniel.. haha. had a really good chat. sophia joined us later after she thought we bought black pepper crabs. lols. we were just chatting around and talking about stuffs... the feeling is kinda nice.. though we were tired. dunt know if im gonna work tml. mayb ill jus get a mc.

well.. gonna play games.!. 2k9!. din have much chance to play it yet. ciao!

jus finished balling. friends couldn really make it. so was pretty much on my own. saw melvin today. the freestyle baller. haha. teamed up with him n a couple of guys. was quite amazed by his ball control.. the matches were pretty intensed. almost ended up fighting. our elbows were like flying all over and melvin was embarrasing all of em with his sick moves. lol. opponents were a bunch of gangsters i guess.

felt pretty down today. dunno wads gotten into me. i have this sudden feeling to give it all up. jus end up rotting. stop balling and stuff.. dose who knw me will know it will nv happen, but.. its jus a passing thought.

i always never get what i want. should just go for my op and give up!

have to book in tml morning.. feel quite sian now.. thinking that the rest of my ns life is stay-in.. and tt i might not be able to play basketball or do the things that i wanna do.. i dunt knw why..but i feel depressed at the thought of being deprived to play basketball while serving army.. am i really suffering frm depression? .

i already play like fuck.. if this 2 years cannot play.. sure worse den fuck!. damn sians.. even when playing the under21 cup... oso cant get to play much... den nex day have to book in.. i really dun have the motivation to carry on.. esp when i cant b released to play ball... think this whole thing is jus so damn unfair..

why other ppl can get what they want.. and i have to struggle and think of ways to get myself out.. and still miss out on everything.

man, cant believe i have to live my life like this

just returned frm tw training. it was my last training b4 im enlisted into the army. and oso the most slack. only 8 ppl turned up.. after some shooting drills.. we played half court.. and training finished around 940pm.. after all left .. only yewseng and gougou stayed on to chat.. i stayed behind 2 cos i tot i was going out.. needed to wait for fone calls.. anyway.. heard them talk about their lives.. sounds interesting. haha. nth much to say oso